It is strange feeling to be so stuck- no matter how hard I try to escape it’s pointless; there is no escape. The harder I try the more tired I become and the worse the pain becomes until I am so exhausted that I just want to lie down and die just so the pain will stop.
Before you jump to conclusions let me reassure you that I am not suicidal. Maybe borderline depressed but most definitely not suicidal.
Last July I wrote this post and it feels like nothing has changed. I could literally be back in July 2016.
I haven’t written here for a long time and not because I haven’t had anything to say but because I just haven’t had the energy. It sounds incredulous, doesn’t it?
Seriously, who doesn’t have enough energy to sit in bed and type a few words? Is that even possible?
Take my word for it – I pray you never learn through experience.